You Think You Know

Her head ached. Her head ached so much she was sure it would soon explode. Her mind was racing and her heart was pounding, which only caused more pain in her head. She wished everything would just stop. Just for a moment. She needed the world to stop. Stop spinning at the speed of light. She was getting dizzy. So dizzy, and soon, she was sure, she'd fall. And she didn't know her far. She needed to not feel as if she'd soon be swimming in a pool filled with her own tears. She didn't want to hear the siren in the night anymore. She was losing control.

Everything she thought she knew had changed. Her world had been turned upside down, and she didn't know what to do. She slid against the wall, down to the floor and buried her head in her knees, finally allowing the tears she'd been holding back to come out. "You think you know..." she said in a whisper, looking up, though there was really nothing to look at.

Again, the tears fell. Relentlessly. This time, they wouldn't stop. And when they did, the screams returned. She'd removed the lid from the bottle. All the pent up energy inside was escaping. Rushing and raging like a waterfall.

So where do you start when everything's changed? When you feel like you just don't know anything anymore? She didn't know the answers. She didn't know. She just didn't know. Didn't have a clue.

There was the incident itself, the flashes, the people around her. Confusing people. People who didn't make any sense because they said one thing and did another. The few around her who weren't confusing were just angry. Angry that this had happened to her. All they wanted to do was break something. Release their lids.

They say that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but actually facing the fear was so much easier said than done. She felt as if even trying to face the fear might kill her. She didn't want to stay stuck in this place, but moving on just seemed so impossible. So she sat, crying endless tears. Because she didn't have any idea what to do.