I'll Remember Yesterday

It's all new. This world, this life, without you. But somehow, it's easier than it was before. It's easier to comprehend a life after the life I had with you where once it didn't seem possible at all. Please don't think that this means I'll forget you. I love you and I miss you still. More than anything, I wish you were here with me.That you'd never left at all. Is that crazy?

But, whether I like it or not, time goes on, and with it I am dragged along. There are often times when I long to cling to yesterday. Cling to a world with you. Where this heartache and pain never happened. Where you are here, standing by my side. Two peas in a pod, you and I. You and me against the world. Just the two of us, together forever. Together until the very end. That was the dream, and we lived it too. But I wish with everything I have that I could live in it forever. I wish I could have you back. That I could go back to how it was before. Just you and I. The dream team. Is that selfish?

All these wishes, I know, are in vein. I want the impossible, but it's just that, as hard as it may be. Once, the thought sent a waterfall of tears raining from my eyes. Now, it's just a sad little smile. I can say your name without shaking. I can laugh and remember without a tear. Is that bad?

But, when someone like you is gone, there's only so long you can live with the shadow left behind staring you in the face. Nothing will ever be like you and I. There's no replacing what we had. That's another unobtainable impossibility. But, it would be nice to have a little company till I see you again. Another friend. To talk to. To laugh with and cry with. To share everything with. Someone else here, to stand beside me and help me take on the world. Someone else here so that I'm not all alone with all of this.

I hope you'll understand, and I'll hope you'l forgive what needs forgiving. I hope you know that I can't wait for the day I'll see you again, but I hope you understand that it will be longer for me than for you and I hope you'll understand that I don't feel like I can do this by myself. I hope you know that tomorrow's a new day and I hope you can understand that just because tomorrow is a new day, it doesn't mean that I'll forget about today. It doesn't mean that I won't remember yesterday. Tomorrow is a new day, but I won't forget today, and I'll always remember yesterday.