Piece of Me

One foot in front of the other. Just one more step. This is what I've been telling myself. For who knows how long. But, as I round the same corner for the hundredth time, I stop, leaning back in my haunches as I gasp exhaustedly for breath. It is only now that I realise that I must give in. That I must finally admit what I have been trying to deny for so long now. That I am lost. So utterly, completely and totally lost.

We entered this maze together, you and I. Now, here I am, walking endless circles without you by my side. To lead us. To guide us.  You disappeared and left me here, all alone. You weren't supposed to leave me here, you know. You weren't supposed to go. I wasn't ready. I'm still not ready. I don't think I ever will be ready to let you go. To say goodbye.

I long for you to return to me, dear friend. To be by my side again. I need you here with me, for I am so lost, so alone, without you. I have tried, so hard, to walk this maze alone. But every new path looks the same. I turn a corner, to find nothing novel there. Everything blends in. You, my friend were special. You could tell things apart. You knew where we'd been, where we were and where we were going.

I've lost all of that now. Like you, there one moment, and gone the next. And when you did go, you took a piece of me away with you too. A vital piece it would seem. Like a fair chunk of my heart. Because, nothing's been the same since.

I stand here, wishing there is something I could do. But, I am helpless. With you, and that piece of me gone, there's nothing left but to learn to live again. It seems impossible from where I am, but... it is possible, I think. People do live without parts of their hearts. At least, I think they do. I hope they do. Because, that's the future I'm facing.

But, even if I live to tell the tale of a stolen piece of my heart, a stolen piece of me, I will always love you. I will always miss you. Though, I hope that one day, maybe, I might be able to live again. That I might find the exit from this endless maze and find a life beyond this. And I hope, for you, that it's wonderful wherever you are. I hope you can be happy. I hope you are able to have the life you have always deserved. But, more than anything, I hope against hope that I'll see you again, someday very, very soon.